July 23, 2008 - Wednesday - 12:33noon
I met my girl-friend Ann again last night. We had pizza together and went to a ktv bar. My friend in college texted me telling he wants to kill himself. I invited him to join us instead to get away with his suicidal thoughts.
He was exactly the same person I saw 2yrs ago; cute, 5'5", not so muscled, tan, curly hair, nice dimples, cute and rugged. But he becomes more of a man now than just a lad. I remember how the girls giggled back then everytime they saw him in school under a tree with his guitar... singing. I used to tell him that his voice never failed to amuse me yet he considered it a joke. But it's true!
Furthermore, we have something in common - our suicidal thoughts. Although, mine is minimal because I really never think of doing it for real; I just wish myself dead for no reasons. But him, he wants to do it whenever he gets hold of a gun by chance. Scary. I remember the old days, his family, his stories, how low he feels and how he regrets life. We even shared a night together - you know what i mean. I didn't take advantage. He even insisted it and said it's a way of me in helping him unloading his burdens. Whew. What can I do? I am just a human; bind to be tempted. lol.
My friend - Ann - went ahead since she still has work today leaving us with a few bottles of beer. I was already drunk and he was too. We talked about life, I comforted and cheered him in distress. Then we talked about that incident, that crazy night and laughed. I didn't wish but I thought something's gonna happen. If he did ask me to repeat thy history --- I don't know what could have happened. I am not a false pretending person! Again, I am just human - bind to temptation. :p.
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